Step into a new life?

Today is my last day of vacation and I am trying not to be too depressed.  In the past when I was frustrated with the way my life was going before a vacation I would come back from vacation with a renewed confidence.  I would be excited about making my life new.  I would change one thing and it would begin the process of making my life different and better.  Like I said, in the past.  Recently every time I try to change my life, it only seems to make it worse.  Nothing seems to be clicking for me.  I am feeling lost and uncertain.  I really don't know what to do to make my life better.  All I know is that I can't keep doing what I have been doing.  I have no friends in NYC and I hate my job.   I need a sign showing me which direction to go into.  I've tried creating the life I thought I wanted but it isn't working.  I have tried not doing anything proactively to change my life and that hasn't worked.  Maybe my only option is praying about it and then letting it flow.  It seems to me to be the only way to live peacefully at least.

Hitting the wall

I've hit the proverbial wall.  I can no longer go on with feeling frustrated, angry and depressed about every aspect of my life.  This may sound like a bad thing but it is actually a good thing.  I am no longer willing to feel bad.  Feeling good about me and my life is the only option.  I will also no longer associate myself with people who are negative or take away my energy.

My goals for the remainder of 2013 and into 2014:

1.  Focus on my health and weight.
2.  Focus on finding my life's passion.
3.  Focus on finding positive people that I have things in common with and that I enjoy being around.
4.  Focus on finding the man of my dreams who feels the same way about me.